Friends .. and that same shit.

Its become obvious, ive lost more than half of the people I once saved a place for in my circle. But things happen and you have to learn to recognize the ones who are just there for a temp. visit. I guess the ones who were temporary..I wanted them to be solid. It didnt work to my liking. An who is to say that the people that are there now, are solid enough to be concrete. I mean just because I lost some, and there still here doesnt mean they are for good. I could lose them tomorrow with the drop of a dime, or quater...doesnt really matter what type just the fact that they will be gone has my head throbbing. But honestly Im use to being solo, alone, 1 Deep as most call it. So now I must observe and follow every detail .. dont let anything slip away from my eyes.. But why cant things be that simple? Huh? To just live through life with a handful of people who are just as true to you as you are to them? And its from birth to death, all of you, together.. Sharing stories and making laughs last.. But if that were true.. It wouldnt be life..